It seems to be the time of the year where everything is on the move. Even though I would love to have some rest, the wheel keeps turning round and round, again and again.
I could realize that it’s all about control and letting go of control. The more I tried to do so the more unmanageable my life was going to be.
So how can I step back, cross my fingers and just be, without my mind running in circles. How can I cope with my feelings of being homesick more than ever?
It could be that it is related to this time of the year. We have got winter where I live and this means that when I wake up it is often still dark and foggy. Not quite the best combination for lifting my mood.
I know that this shall pass and that the sun is coming out again and the sky will be bright blue again and at the same time, when I am stuck in this mood nothing seems to bring me out of this mood and just the opposite I am digging deeper into my despair and even deeper.
So I just woke up today and thought, what if I would fill myself with love, filling my whole body with wonderful red shimmering warm love and then put an extra protection over my body to keep this feeling as a cure for falling into this dark mood again.
I did so and it felt sensational and I felt really connected with myself and with my needs as well and I could realize a shift from the feeling of a wounded heart to the feeling of an open heart.
Today I cherish my open heart!
Much, much love