Two souls alas! Are dwelling in my breast
This time I am writing about something what I always wanted to do. I do hope that I find the right words for it.
I have got somehow two souls dwelling in my breast.
There is the one which is the controlling and people pleasing, easily overwhelmed and left alone soul… I could keep on going with describing my fears, my addictions….
Recently I could find another “soul” bouncing into my mind and repeatedly asking to be valued and implemented more deeply.
Well, this is a little bit out of my comfort zone, to be honest, it’s the first time I write about this like I will do now.
This other part of me is the one longing for expression of my sexuality, my deep hidden cravings.
I come from a very conservative background and even to think about “it” was kind of forbidden. I followed this inner rule for quite a long time during my life and now I can find that this kept me from enjoying and living my sexuality and to expand it more, it had kept me from following my own personal drive and having my personal imprint as well.
As I said it’s the first time ever that I publish this to the Universe and it is my major step to honour myself and my feelings about sexuality and life force.
This is quite liberating.
So just very short I am both: controlling, living in fear and on the other hand I am courageous, creative, with relish and adventure.
It’s all about finding the right balance, isn’t it???