This morning was quite different compared to other mornings I usually have. I could not get started, got up later and could not focus on anything. Then I got caught in a traffic jam due to leaving home later than normal. On the way from my car quite far away from where I am normally parked I lost part of my heel…
You know this kind of days when you don’t even know what’s happening?
Anyway while I was driving in my car I listened to a country music radio station and could hear “I am the lonesome cowboy”.
I really had two associations coming to my mind. The first one was being lonesome and the second one was the image of a cowboy sitting on the fire.
Well I went for the cowboy sitting on the fire and caught fire by this naughty fantasies coming to my mind. I am not sure if this is something to be shared in public but sometimes following those fantasies is quite uplifting and arousing. Have to say that I am happily married.
I could have gone for being lonesome, which happened a little while afterwards, when I felt the wave of confusion rolling over myself as I was confronted with business reality again.
That’s the reason why I have started writing to have more space for developing my fantasies.
It took me another half of the day to realize that really everything happens in my mind. I have got the choice, which means I can decide to follow my fantasies or follow the feeling of being lonely.
What I could find out for myself was that I will go with my fantasies, which is where I get all my energy, passion, connection and power to beautify my daily life.
Just being honest with myself (and thoughts are free:)),